My Life Changing Experience!! =0)

Tuesday, March 23, 2010, I was called by my physician to come to a class on diabetics. I agreed and went to the 2 hour class. There I found out lots of information and that my condition is alot more serious than I had thought. I am a type 2 diabetic. I pretty much ate anything I wanted. I had gotten to the point where I really didn't care. They had me check my sugar and It was through the roof. They were soo worried and concerned about my health. Dana asked me could I come in the next morning she wanted to start me on the insulin shot. I was terrified. I went home and cried like a baby to my husband. He kept trying to tell me that it will all be ok. I have been on the pill for 5 months and it wasn't makin a difference. Neither one of us got much sleep that night from worrying.

The next morning, I got up as usual and started my daily routine. At this point, I haven't told anyone but my hubby, mommy, and sister. The 3 most important people in my life and who will NEVER judge me. I felt soo ashamed. I knew it was from me not taking care of myself and I didn't want everyone to know that. My appointment was at 8:45. Blake and I had to sit there for sever hours b4 I was seen. About 30 minutes of being in the room, in walked Dana. My heart dropped. I was soo scared. I didn't want to go alone, but I had no one to go with me. She had a box of syrenges and to boxes of insulin. As she opened the boxes and was showing me all that, I just broke out into a huge sweat. I just couldn't believe I was really having to do this. Dana showed me how to give myself the shot. She wanted me to do it but I couldn't. I had her do it. When I left the clinic, I only told 3 0r 4 people. I didn't want anyone to know. Last night, I had to give myself my first shot. I was scared to death. I got the insulin in the syrenge and got the needle in my tummy, but I just couldn't get to mash down and inject the meds. I had to holler for Joe to help..lol It wasn't as bed as I thought it was gonna be. This morning, I had to do it alone. I was nervous, but I done a good Job. I'm soo glad it's not as bad as I had originally thought.

Like I said b4, I didn't want to tell anyone about now becomming a type 1 Diabetic and having to take the insulin shot because I was ashamed. Well, just in a little over 24 hours, my sugar has dropped a tremendious amount. I now have realized that I am FAR from the only one that has to give themselves shots for diabeties. I life depends on thses 2 shots everyday to live. I am soo thankful to be able to take this shot b4 it's to late. There are alot of people that found out they were diabetics when it was to late, at the end of their journey!! So now, I am proud to say, that I am a type 1 diabetic and I have to give myself a shot twice a day. I'm so proud that I get another chance on life to take better care of myself. Not only will this losing weight and taking care of my sugar problem help my life, it can also be the reason for Joseph and I not being able to concieve. Everything happens for a reason and I have another outlook on life!! =)

8 things about DH!!

As most of yall, I believe my husband is the best. He is my best friend AND the love of my life.. I decided since most of this blog is about me, I would tell you a few things about him.

1.) LOVING. He always comes in from work AND kisses me AND tells me how much he loves me. Believe it or not, he also tells me how beautiful I am. I know I'm NOT beautiful, but atleast DH thinks so.. =0)

2.) HARD WORKER!! No matter how sick he is he makes sure he is up and at work on time and if they ever need him to stay over, he does. Most men these days won't go to work much less stay there extra..

3.) REDNECKS!!! For some reason, DH can't stand a bunch of rednecks. To bad he married one..lol I think they are just to funny.. :)

4.) TALLENT!! Joe has the ability to play the guitar, piano, and draw anything he wants to draw. He has drew me an elephant that I framed and hung in our bedroom. He draws little things and leaves then laying around the house but little does he know, I always pick them up and keep them..lol

5.) NEAT FREAK!! Joe isn't as bad a neat freak as I am but to an extent he is. He can't stand the kitchen in a mess, dishes in the sink, and stuff all over the counter. He will get up and go in there and start cleaning it up..

6.) WORRY WART!! He worry's so much about my health since finding out I'm a diabetic. Sometimes, it drives me nuts, but I know it's just beacuse he loves me and want's to take care of me..

7.) SWEET!! I have the sweetest hubby in the world. I know every whife thinks that of their own, but I honestly think Joe is the BEST!! When I was down in my back, he got up for work early where he could help me out of bed, help me potty, and get me on the couch for my daily routine. Now, since I have to take the insulin shot twice a day, he has conqured his fear of needles and helps me with this.

8.) RELIGON!! Joseph grew up in church at Bible Missionary Church in Berry. At that church, their belief is way different. Here is a list of some of their beliefs:

1.) Women can't wear nothing pertaineth to a man, therefore, women can only wear dresses, skirts, 3 quarter length shirts, no open toed shoes.

3.) Men always have to wear jeans and long sleve shirts.

4.) No tv's in the house what so ever.
I don't believe that way. My husband isn't a christian, but he believe that the only way you can be a christian, you have to abide by these rules, which is crazy to me. I don't believe my wearing pants will keep my from entering into heaven.

Bye Bye Weekend!!

After one HORRIBLE day of painting, Joseph got up Saturday morning and decided we were gonna get out of this house and spend some time together without a paint brush in our hands..lol We didn't really do much, but it was lots better than being at this house being ill with eachother. We just went to Tuscaloosa and ate Chineese, went to the thriftstore, and Hobby Lobby but we sure made a day out of it. Joseph's cousin's Husband is in the hospital and so we stopped by DCH b4 heading home and visited with them a minute. So for the most part, we had a positive weekend. We got alot accomplished but dreading the comming weekend to get started again.. UGH!! Today was a good church service. Brother Adam Darty preached an awsome service. So till next time, Hope yall have a good day, night, evening, and be safe in doing whatever you do.. :)

Why???

U know, I try so hard to get along with my family members and friends. Sometimes I feel as if I'm wasting my time. I don't understand why someone has to get so mad about absolutley nothing. My DH and I are painting our home. Well, he told me fromt the begginging that he didn't really wanna paint but he was gonna do it anyway. Little did I know he was gonna do it and curse and fuss the WHOLE time. My nerves are about shot.. I am worrying with him just out right being grouchy then him fussing at me because I might have left a streak on the baseboard. I am just ready to SCREAM!!! :( I thought this would be a great way for us to spend time together plus be doing something productive to our home. Obviously not!

My First Blog Award!!!!

Thanks Khonda for the award...this is fun!! I tell 10 things about me and give the award to 10 bloggers. I am soooo exited about this...lol

10 Things:
1. I am very happily married to my best friend... =0)
2. I hate seafood. You will NEVER see me eating that mess..lol
3. Mexican and Chinese are my favorite foods.. NUM NUM
4. Have a wonderful family & some pretty awesome friends...
5. I have a passion for singing. I love to singing eventhough I know I'm not good..lol
6. 23 years old and still don't know what I want to do when I grow up.
7. My favorite color to decorate my house in is RED!!! I LOVE RED!!!
8. I am infertile, but I know God has a plan for me.. :)
9. I'm not as much a mommy's girl as I used to be.
10. I LOVE SOME ALABAMA FOOTBALL...RRROOOLLL TTTIIIDDDEE RRROOOLLL...

**MY 10 BLOGS TO SHARE THIS AWARD ARE???**
BAMA GIRL
Hocutt Happenings
Our Journey to Starting A Family
Stepan's House
Pretty-N-Pink Bowtique
House of Bowling
Hoping for our own Peanut
The Children I Cannot Hold
Is it my turn yet?
Our Fertility Adventure

Joe's HOBBIE!!!!

Well, I have been wanting to post about my Joe's hobbie. He has found a passion for building modle airplanes. And YES, U can actually fly them. I'm gonna share a few pics with ya. These first few are just when he first got it built minus a few paint jobs to add.. =0

Now we get into the good ones. The wind has actually quit blowing so he can go outside and fly his air plane. I'm soo proud of my hubby that he can make these thangs himself from scratch.. :) These next 2 picks are of Jospeh getting the air plane off the top of our trailer. He was flying it and it landed there..He was nervous about it..lol
The next few are just of DH flying it. Just get a glimpse of how happy he is. This brings out the KID in him..lol







Of course, when you fly one of these airplanes, you eventually crash it. Most of the time you crash, it tare's something up. Today Joe crashed several times and suprisingly it didn't break.. But unfortunately this last time it broke.. =0( So now Joe has to fix it. Here is a pic of that. He don't look to upset about it..lol

Up comming Anniversary!!

Our 4 year anniversary is comming up soon. Here is a little survey I wanted to fill out and share with ya:
1. How long did you date before you were engaged? 6 months

2. How long was your engagement? 2 1/2 years

3. How long have you been married? The 8th of April will be 4 years.

4. What is your anniversary? April 08, 2006

5. How many people came to your wedding reception? about 25 or 30– very small.

6. Where was your wedding? Berry Bible Missionary Church

7. How many people were in your bridal party? 3 for me and 4 for the Husband

8. Are you still friends with them all? Yea. They were all family.

9. Did you or your spouse cry during the ceremony? Umm, no. Neithe one of us cried during the ceremony. Joseph cried as I was walking up the isle and I cried as we were walking down the isle after the wedding was over..

10. Most special moment of your wedding day? Idk what Joe's speical moment was but mine was when he gave my sister a gift to give me. When I opened it, I found a necklace and 2 braclets that Joseph had made for me the night b4 to wear. They were beautiful..

11. Any funny moments? Na..

12. Any big disasters? Not really, but I personally considered my brides mades dresses a disaster.

13. Describe your wedding dress: Spaghette straps and made of chaffon

14. Where did you go on your honeymoon? We really didnt go anywhere. We just went to T-Town and rented a hotel because at the time we were living with my granny..

15. How long were you gone? Just over night.

16. If you were to do your wedding over, what would you change? This is tricky. Joseph and I paid for our wedding so it certainly wasn’t as classy or upscale as I would like now, but I also didn’t care about that stuff to much. I was the least bridezilla you ever saw and let people do what they wanted. But since you asked . . . .
a. I hated the bridesmaids dresses. They colors were right, and the design was right, but she used a different kind of material that she was supposed to. It was horrible.
b. I probably would’ve invited more people. I thank I missed a few people I would’ve liked to have there.
c. I didn’t love the pics. I asked my Aunt Kathy to be the photographer and she just mainly lined us up and took pics. Nothing really pretty. :(
d. The church was sentimental, but it was an old country church and didn’t have the nicest decor. I still wouldn’t change it due to sentimental reasons that Joseph was raised up in that church.

17. Greatest strength as a couple? We’re completely immature around each other. We act crazy, but we like it that way. Can I use that as our strength..lol

18. Greatest challenge as a couple? Yikes! Me having PCOS, so I guess Infertility!!

19. Who literally pays the bills? Well, Joseph's money pays the bills, but I am the one that writes the checks out, get's online and pays by debit, and goes to pay them so we both play a part in that one..lol

An 18 year old Donor!!!

As I sit here and watch Ture Life {I need a transplant}, I am saddened so badly. I hate to see people like this.. But on the other hand, I am so proud of my brother Jason.. On his death, October 17, 2008, he saved a mother of 2 and a young man's life. Isn't it AMAZING??? I absolutley hate that my brother isn't with... us anymore, but in his passing, he has saved lives...lives of complete strangers!!So glad that I'm also a donor!!! If you are NOT a donor, you should be. It's a wonderful thang.. When you are gone, you can't use your organs, so why not let someone else use them???? Here is a pic of the Donor Pin that Jessica and I recieved from Jason being a donor. I will FOREVER cherrish this..
On this particular show, A 13 year old girl had to have a kindney transplant and her daddy was the donor. Now, a few years later, the kidney has just about stopped workin so she is having to have another transplant. Her mother is the donor this time. It's so sad, but I'm glad her parents were able to help her. The other story is about a man that has just got married and then in the same week found out he has leukemia. He has a friend that is willing to share his bone marrow with him..Isn't that soo sweet. That just a friend would risk their lives for you to live also. That is a loyal and great friend.

Should DH and I become Foster Parents???? :P

It's 2a.m. on a Monday morning. I know I should be sleeping because I have to get up at 20 til 5, but I just have alot I wanna talk about. I took a nap earlier, so I'm not a bit sleepy. I am sitting in bed beside Joseph and I have realized how BLESSED I truly am. I have a wonderful husband that loves me SOOOO much. He provides me with everything I need and could possible want. He isn't out cheating on me, like most folks around here do..lol So why do I still feel ALONE and saddened at times?

I get to reading all of these infirtility blogs and how they struggle for years and finally become mommy's and daddy's either through childbirth or adoption. I would love to do either one. Which ever one God has in store for me. I just fear that I will NEVER be called mommy. I know several people that have not been able to be blessed with children either. I just can't except that. I HAVE to be a mommy. I have had a conversation with a dear friend that has adopted 2 precious little boys, brothers, and are currently being a foster mother to a young teen mom and her less than a year old baby girl. She was trying to talk to me about becomming a foster parent. I just don't believe I can do that.
My reasonings are:
1.You eventually have to give then child/ren back to their biological parents
2.I just can't see putting my heart out there for another dissappointment/heartbreak.
I guess that's not many reason's but, that's enough for me. I mean, don't get me wrong, I would love to help children, be a place that a needy child could call home for a few days/weeks, but that is also lots of feelings that will go along with it. I have called our local DHR and recieved a huge folder about foster parenting and adoption. I have read some of it but not it all. That is what has got me to thanking about the good and bad of it. Since I have posted my reasonings for NOT wanting to become a foster parent, here are some of my reason's to consider it.
My reasonings are:
1.Have a child in my home.
2.Being able to provide a place for a needy child to call home for the short length of time.
3.Hopeful chance to adopt.
4.Hopefully fill the emptiness in my heart for a child of my own.
That is all I can thank of right on the spot. I guess there are more good reasons that bad ones. I guess I should finish reading those papers and give it a bit more thought. Idk..

Is painting hard????

I have FINALLY talked my husband into painting the inside walls of our trailor. YEAH!! We are gonna start in our kitchen with an accent wall of a rustic red color.. My kitchen is way to small to paint the whole thang red, so we are just gonna paint under the cabinets red and the rest of the walls in the trailor a khaki color. We thank it will look good.. We have already taken everything out of the kitchen, off the counters, and walls. Joseph has taken all nails down and puddied the holes in the walls so we can smooth it down tonight where we can start painting tomorrow. I'm so exited but so nervous I have taken on a bigger job than I can handle.. I am gonna take a few pics throughout this process and share with you guys...


THE COST-Well, we are not rich people and since Joseph has only been on 3 days a week for a while, this is gonna be a slow process. For now, we have spend over 30 bucks and it's just for one wall..OH NO!!! We have many more walls to go..

One post for the past 2 days..

Yesterday, I went to Jasper with one of my besties. We had a good day, other than we both had headaches. We shopped till we dropped. Blake and I took a few pics together.. I'm gonna share one with ya.We were in the car waiting on Stacey to come out of a store, so we make the best of it. We had an awsome lunch. We wen't to Lin Garden.(chinese) It's the bomb. I thank I have to eat it everytime I go to Jasper, thanks to my big sis, Jessica. lol After getting home, Cricket and I went to the walkin trail up here in the big ole' town of Berry and walked 1/2 a mile b4 she went to whinning she was cold..lol On Monday nights, 3 of my other friends pile up at eachother's house and watch The Bachelore. It's so much fun. Unfortunately, it's over now. Last night was Jason and Molly's wedding. It was beautiful eventhough it rained during the ceremony. That just made it more memorable for them..


Today, Tuesday, I had made plans to take Blake to the Fayette Co. Library to a reading program since I had to go back there and take a move back. Well, when we got there we were informed that we were supposed to call last week to sign up because no one ever comes. That was aggravating. Then I remembered I didn't bring in the movie. Went to the car to get it and it wasn't there. I searched everywhere for it. Finally found it after strocking out becuase it was gonna cost me over $20 bucks to replace it. UGH!! lol Releif!! Blake and I went to my mama's and she cooked us some lunch. I had decided to get her a quilt made with pics of her and her kids made for mothers day and her birthday combined. We spend the time looking through pics. It was very emotional finding pics of my late baby brother.. :( This will be a very great gift though. Well, i gotta get up and get thangs done around here b4 bedtime so I guess I gotta end this blog. Talk to my peeps later.

*Sunday Blessings*

Tonight at Church, Brother Adam Darty went over several screptures in the bible. Here are a few that really struck home with to me.

Ecclesiastes 3-1
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil?

10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.

1 Timothy 6-7
For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.

From my Kitchen to Urs!!

1. Do you have magnets on your fridge? Yes, to many probably.
2. Do you have a calendar in the kitchen and if so, what is it's theme? Yes and it's called The Pourpose Driven Life.
3. What is your favorite kitchen gadget or tool? My Paula Dean Knife set.
4. Are you lucky enough to have a pantry of some kind? Not really. It's just three cabinets that stack on top of one another.
5. What is your favorite appliance? My dishwasher.
6. Do you have an eat in kitchen? Yes. I just have a small bar like table.
7. Do you have a bread box? Nope
8. Do you have a picture of your kids on the fridge? No just a couple of pictures other peoples kids!
9. Do you ever cook breakfast in your pjs? Most of the time I cook breakfast Im in my pjs!
10. Do you have a favorite cookbook? Yep, Paula Deen.
11. Are you lucky enough to have recipes that were passed down from your mom and grandma? No.
12. What's your favorite food? Here lately it is Chinese.
13. What's your favorite thing to cook? Don't really have a favorite.
14. Is your coffee pot electric or stove top? Electric
15. Do you make your own bread? Nope.
16. Name one thing you have hanging on the wall in your kitchen. Picture
17. Is there a clock in your kitchen? Digital ones on appliances.
18. Do you have a bowl of fruit on your table or counter? Nope..I have already ate it all.
19. What type of canisters do you have? Tupperware white with red tops.
20. Does your kitchen have a theme? Red
21. What's for supper tonight? Grilled Porckchops and HB's at my sisters.
22. Do you have enough cabinet space? I dont know that you ever have enough cabinet space...or is it that you collect too much stuff over time??
23. Does your family use paper plates? Yea, sometimes.
24. Do you have a good set of china packed up? no
25. Do you wear an apron to work in the kitchen? Ok yes I have worn an apron on certain occasions! I know I am not the only one!
26. Name one thing you would change about your kitchen if you could. I would just like to make it bigger and paint.

Join me in sharing about your kitchen!

Movies or TV?

Hey "YALL". I just wanna share with you my favorite TV shows. I absolutley love watching "Food Network". I just about watch them all but my favotire is
"Paula Dean"She is one of the most country women I have ever saw, so how could you NOT love her. I went to the Fayette Co. Library and checked out a book that Paula Dean and some other guy co. wrote about her life. I thought I already knew everything about her but obviously not. I am on chapter 10 and I have already read so much I had no idea about. I just can't wait to see what else I don't know..lol My other two favorite shows to watch on that channel is:
Rachael Ray
Down Home with the Neely'sYou should watch them sometimes and see just what I'm talkin about. My daily shows consist of my Soap Opra's Day's of our lives and One Life to Live.
Those are some really addictive shows. I can't wait for the next day's to be here. The best day's are always Friday's...That's always when something really happens. Today's Day's was mainly about Dr. Johnas telling Melanie he is her long lost father. Also, EJ brings Sidney back to Sami right at the end of the show. So therefor, I can't wait till Monday. On OLTL's episode today was about Gigi and Rex talking to a lawyer about getting custody of Siera Rose. But yet, Skyler is talking to a Laywer about trying to keep his big secret hid about stilling the pitocin to induse Stacey's labor. That's just to make a long story short..lol
Here goes on my weekly show's. There are alot of them. 19 Kids and Couting,American Idol, Teen Mom,Secret Life of the American Teenanger,The Bachelor and many more.
I'm not that kind of girl that like to sit and watch movies.. If I can sit there and watch a moveie, It's got to be real good..lol

The Blind Side

One day this past week, I watched this movie. At first I wasn't into it, but after about 10 minutes I was TOTALY into it. This was the best movie I have ever watched as an adult. I love movies and/or books where someone takes in a needy child. I wish to one day be able to do that as well. I don't know what God has in store for me in my future, but I sure hope that's part of it. *Anyway*, Just incase you haven't ever watched it, here is what it's about:
Michael Oher, a homeless African-American youngster from a broken home, is taken in by the Touhys, a well-to-do white family who help him fulfill his potential. At the same time, Oher's presence in the Touhys' lives leads them to some insightful self-discoveries of their own. Living in his new environment, the teen faces a completely different set of challenges to overcome. As a football player and student, Oher works hard and, with the help of his coaches and adopted family, becomes an All-American offensive left tackle.

Why do I have to be infertile?

Something I don't really talk about to anyone is that I am infertile. I do NOT ovulate, therefore I can't get pregnant. So watching some of my favorite shows just really upsets me. Everytime I watch "16 and Pregnant", "Secret Life of the American Teenager", "Teen Mom", "Pregnant and...." I just bawl like a baby. I don't know what it is? Is it because they have EXCTALY what I want? A baby? IDK!! I want to experience telling my family and frineds those famous words, "I'm Pregnant!!" I wan't to feel my baby kick inside my body. I wan't the pain that comes along with it. I want the whole 9 yards. Is it just to much to ask? It just pains me that I won't ever get to experience it. Sometimes if I'm ever nausiated or any of the other pregnancy symptoms someone always has to say, "Are you pregnant? U could be!!" It just hurts to always have to say "NO, THERE IS NO WAY!!" Going to town and seeing all thse pregnant women with their husbands shopping for their unborn baby saddens me so much. I just stand back and say, "I wish I could do that!" :( I guess it's just something I have got to cope with. It's so hard though. I'm hopping this blog will help me out some.

~*SUN*~

Here it is a NEW lovely day. The sun is shinning beautifully today. Makes you wanna put on some shorts and flipflops. :) Right now, Joseph's work is pretty slow and they are on 3 days a week. I love spending extra time with him, but my bank account hates it.lol We have not done anything much today. I still have Blake so I got up and left Joe sleeping this morning. Isn't that a nice wife? Since you know I absolutley LOVE taking pics of everything that goes on around me, I have taken a pic of my 3 FAVORITE boys. That's right..Joseph, Blake, and Rowdy.. If I have to spend the day with someone, I would love nothing more but it to be with them.. Joe got out there and cleaned his car up..He desperatley needed to.lol Blake, well he has just walked around either playing the DS or playing with Joe's phone. He has definitely hung around Joseph way to long. He has turned into nothing satisfying his time more that something that is an electronic. Bless their hearts. I was reading someone's blog today and I came upon a bible verse that I have never heard b4 and I would love to share it with you:

"Two are better than one,
because they have a good reward for their labor.
For if they fall, one will lift up his companion."
~Ecclesiastes 4:9