27 week apt.

Finally able to post about the most amazing experience of my life!!!!  The 27th week appt.  Rikki had to do an ultrasound because the last appt they didn't get a good picture of Emma's heart so they had a concern about it.  THANK GOD they got a good enough picture and it's beating perfect!!!  My little miracle is doing good.  Here are a couple pictures from that day.

Jessica, Rikki, and I headed to Hattisburg to Rikki's appt.

Me and the Winkie Doodle.  :)  I have always called her that from birth.

Me and Rikki before going into the Dr. Office for her visit.

Rikki also had to do her sugar test.  It about made her sick but she done real good and held it all in.  YEAH!  When it was time to go back for Ultrasound, Rikki chose Me, her mom and dad to go back since only 3 could go.  I wanted to record it with my cell phone but it wasn't allowed.  POOWE!!  lol It was the most amazing sound I have EVER heard when they put that wand on her tummy and I heard Emma's heartbeat for the first time.  I cried, cried, and cried!  It was amazing.  Emma was sucking on her little thumb.  That was precious.  My little miracle.  :))  NEVER in a million years did I ever imagine I would get to hear my babies heart beat but I did and I still can't believe it.  Me and Mandy were just a crying and the nurse looked up at us and said, "This isn't a funeral your attending!!!"  She just don't know the situation or she wouldn't have said such.  I can only imagine the how amazing her birth will be if I was this emotional over an ultrasound.  :)  I sure can't wait though.  ONLY 10 weeks and 1 day to go but it sure seems like FOREVER!!!!

Here is the little Miracle baby that GOD is sending to me straight from HEAVEN.  Emma Katherine Tanner...My ANGEL girl.

She's already so beautiful and perfect.  (TEAR..TEAR)

Rikki has sent me several videos of Emma kicking away since this appointment.  I can't wait to see her beautiful little face and love her up.  She is going to be loved sooo much...Heck she already is and my heart is so filled with love for her I can't imagine it getting any stronger, but I know it will be as soon as I get to see and hold her.  :))  Here is one video Rikki sent me.  Emma is ready to come OUT!!  :))

Here is another one.  So sweet.  My sweet girl that I love with ALL OF MY HEART!!!

    

Our first reaction...

I'm back home and ready to update you all on how the trip went.  My sister and I left out pretty early Thursday morning.  We got to Poplarville a little after lunch.  After meeting with Lee and Lynel, Lynel went and checked the kids out of school while we walked around the thrift store.  Rikki Leigh, Lori, and Scotty were surprised to see us so early.  :)  I hugged all the kids then when I actually looked Rikki in her face I burst into tears and so did she.  I couldn't wait another second to touch that little baby bump of hers.  

After leaving the thrift store, the kids told me how to get to Picayune to where Mandy lives. 

                                                                  Jessica and Mandy.

                                                            Me, Mandy, and Jessica.
Mandy was headed to work so we weren't able to stay long.  It was a nice meet though.  Many has a nice house and love the flowers out front.  :)


After the visit with Mandy, we headed back to Poplarville to where the kids live where we could get ready to go out to eat.  Of course we had to stop to get a few pictures in.  HEHE!

Scotty and Jessica

Scotty, Me, Rikki, and Lori.

Rikki, Scotty, and Lori

Rikki's baby bump.  My sweet Emma is in there. :)

AWW...Emma Katherine is already blessed with 2 Moms that loves her more than anything.  :)

Here are a few pictures from that night at Rocky and Carlos's while we were waiting on our food to arrive.

Riiki and Keith.  Emma's biological parents.
No doubt she's gonna be a cutie.  :)

Jessica, Rikki, and Keith

Scotty being Scotty.  lol

Lori, Me, and Scotty.  :))

We had a good time and ate lots of food.  lol

Can you believe the last couple post???  That Joseph and I are going to be parents???  Yea, in 12 short weeks we will be bringing home a newborn baby to raise and love of our own.  :)  We can't wait either.  Here is the first ultrasound pictures Rikki Leigh got.  Aren't they just the most precious pictures you have ever seen??  :)) 

The day  my sister went and met with the lawyer we went to Walmart to look at baby stuff.  YES...I had to buy something for my soon to be daughter.  HAHA

I started the day after we found out we were adopting cleaning out the bedroom that we will be turning into Emma Katherine's nursery.  I downsized a lot of Maggie and Sophie's clothes.  We need the money plus the room for Emma's bed and all her things.  It was so bittersweet.  It was so hard and I cried each time I would go in there to start going through it but I just made myself grab a pile and start measuring them.  I've sold some and I have the rest on hold for a couple ladies that promise to pay me on April 3rd.  Lets hope they keep up their end of the bargain.

Joseph and I have already been showered with lots and lots of people giving us things.  My best friend Kayla has offered to give me all of her youngest daughters clothes to use and give back to her when Emma grows out of them.  That is such a HUGE blessing.  She has also loaned me her baby bouncers.  Such a sweet friend.  I have Karenda King, she has also fought with infertility which has twins now, that has several things for me, Jennifer Davidson that does and she's selling me a swing that's nearly brand new that her Sophie hated.  I have bought a couple outfits, a monitor at a yardsale for only $7, and a car seat stroller combo from the Walker County Yardsale page on FB.  It' real nice.  Got a great deal on it to.

I am packed and about to get ready to head out to Mississippi to go to Rikki's dr appointment with her on Friday, March 22.  I am beyond excited to see Emma moving all around on the screen.  HEHE! I know I am going to be so emotional these next couple days but, hey, I think It's ok for me to.  :)  I Will be back with lots of pictures and hopefully a video of Emma on the screen.  

The phone rang.....

On Saturday, Lee had text me out of no where asking me had Rikki called me.  I was like no.  He never text me back so I called him.  He was just wondering if Rikki had called me about wanting to give me her baby.  That kinda threw up a red flag like he knew something.  Then I got antsy.  I was then hopeful that Rikki was gonna choose us but I couldn't let myself think it...NOT YET!!  I couldn't get myself so excited and then not know the outcome of her decision.

On Sunday, March 10, 2013, Joe and I had been cleaning up around the house and looking into a beach vacation in April for our anniversary.  About that time THE PHONE RANG AND IT WAS RIKKI LEIGH....My heart sank onto the floor.  I couldn't make myself answer the phone..I had 1,000,000,000 things running through my head...Could she be calling to tell me she found an adoptive family for her baby, could she be FINALLY calling me to tell me she had chose Joe and I to adopt her baby????  Finally I answered with a scared to death tone.  This is our Converstion to the best I can remember.

Rikki-Kk...I want to tell you something.
Me- Ok baby girl.
Rikki-Keith and I have talked, and I've talked to daddy and I've talked to Mom, and We have decided that we want you and Uncle Joe to adopt my baby.
TEARS START ROLLING DOWN MY EYES!!!
Me-Really????
Rikki-Yes Ma'am.
Me-Now you know this is going to be the hardest decision you have EVER made.
Rikki-Yes Ma'am I know.  But I know this is what's best for my baby and I have do do what's best for her.  Right now that's all that matters to me.
Me-Now Rikki, I don't want you to tell me this now and Joe and I prepare for her and then when you have her you change you mind.
Rikki, No ma'am..I am not gonna change my mind.  I want to graduate school and I want to go to college and I can't do that and raise a baby.  Also with me still being in school I can't give her the life I want her to have.  When I'm older and out of school and married I can have another baby and right now I can give you this baby and make your dreams come true..
TEARS AND REALLY FLOWING FROM MY EYES!!!
Me-Well I need to talk to Joe.  We havn't talked about any of this because we were waiting to see if you chose us or not before we got our hopes up.
Rikki-Ok.  Well you can let me know.
I hung up the phone..WOWDid I really just receive that phone call???  OMG..At this time Joe walked in form the grill.  He is smiling and he said who was that.  I said it was Rikki Leigh.  He said IDK if I want to know what she said.  I just sat and cried and cried and cried some more.  WOW..  I still can't believe it.  What I had been wanting to hear for several weeks now had came true and I didn't know how to act.  The rest of the day all Joe and I could do what talk about the "what if's"  WOW..Is all I had to say!!

Not sure how to react....But my reaction is followed by a :))

WOW...Where do I start?  Lets see..I'M GONNA BE A MOMMY!!!  No, I'm not prego, but Joseph and I will be adopting in just a few short months.  June 2013 to be exact.  We couldn't be more happier.  The next couple paragraphs or post will explain.  :)

Back in January 2013 we found out my oldest niece, Rikki Leigh, was pregnant.  I can't speak for everyone else, but I was somewhat excited.  To me, no matter what the age, a pregnancy followed by a baby is nothing but a blessing.  I was upset for the fact of my kid niece could get pregnant but yet me being 27 years old and married I still couldn't.  Anyway, we soon found out she was having a GIRL and that made me sooo happy.  GIRLS are princesses and I couldn't wait to buy her hair bows and frilly dresses...etc.  As the days and weeks went on each time I was at the thrift store or at a yard sale and I saw precious little baby items I bought them for Rikki.  I knew that when the time came for her baby shower I wanted to give her TONS of things and I wouldn't be able to spend lots of money at one time.

On February 28, 2013, Rikki had text me and gave me her new phone number.  Her boyfriend had given her an Iphone.  I was so excited because I had wanted to send her pictures of all the things I had bought for her baby and on her previous phone I couldn't.  Rikki end me this picture of her little growing belly.  Isn't it precious???  :))

Anyway, I took it upon myself to start taking pictures and sending them.  As they were all sending I decided to go get in my tanning bed.  Little did I know I was gonna receive a text message that would break my heart like it had NEVER been broken before.

Yes that was the text message I received from my niece.  I was DEVASTATED to say the least.  After her and I talked I  was even more broken hearted.  It broke my heart because I can't have kids, yet she didn't even think about giving her to me.  She said she had thought about a family member but thought it would be to hurtful seeing her daughter calling them mom.


For the next couple days I had my sister Jessica calling me saying she had been talking to Rikki some and Rikki's daddy had also called me and was terribly upset saying he was trying to talk Rikki into giving me her baby.  I had never seen or heard Lee be so emotional but this day he called me he was crying like he had lost his best friend.  He told me how if Rikki gave her baby to a stranger he would always worry about her but that if she gave her to me he wouldn't ever have to worry about her because he knew Joe and I would raise her up right and in a good home.  I never knew Lee really felt that good about Joe and I but it was sure nice to know and it also brought on way more tears.  lol  Now don't get me wrong...We ALL wanted Rikki to keep her baby.  We ALL want her to be able to be a mommy to her baby but if she is really considering adoption, we ALL dont understand why she wouldn't want to give her to Joe and I.  We just don't understand.  Every single time I talked about it or even thought about it it broke me down.  I love my niece more than she would ever know and I told her how I wanted to be the one she chose to raise her daughter but I also told her that no matter what she chose to do I would still love her unconditionally and that would NEVER change.